Xiuhui

i am scared really very very scared now ... i can now slowly hear the steps of the impending doom coming nearer and nearer to me ....just next week !!! NEXT WEEK ..... The results will be released ..... i think i will get 28 points .... this will not get me to anywhere !!! how !!!! what should i do ?? starting to panic ........ my mind is occupied with this ....... i am now blur in doing anything ..... no mood to do anything ...... i know this is really my fault for not doing my best .... i skipped lesson ... slept in class ... eat in class ... play a fool and whatever ........ i really regretted for not studying hard enough .. really .. really .. now its already too late to say this..what done is done .. i can't possibily cry over a spilt milk right ? i can only blame myself for not doing my best ... its all my fault !!! i am now starting to hate myself to the bottom !!! this is my future !!! yet i am playing a fool with it ....... i have just realised that i will be left with NOTHING without a passed o level cert !!! a PSLE cert will never bring me to anywhere .... i can forget about earning big bucks in future ........ i am just a stupid sucker !! A SUCKER !!!! get it !!!! and what so if i earn much more than other people right now a few thousand bucks cannot bring me to anywhere ......... i really let down my parents ... esp my daddy ..... he spend $550 every month for my tuition fees .. but i get such a grade ..... all the $$ that he spend is wasted really wasted.......... he earn so hard for it but yet i never appreciate it ... i really sorry dad ...................